A New Start

I've been wanting to get something off my chest for sometime. I am about 39 days away from school starting (counting the two weeks where I'll be actually working on an official project), and I have been less than productive when it comes to what I had originally planned for my summer. As much as I would like to say I've been living it up so much this summer that I have no regrets about it, the lack of accomplishing my goals for improving my illustrating skills, designing ideas, and sewing practice worries me.

Not that I blame my friends for my laziness and inability to commit fully and whole-heartedly to becoming more serious as a designer, I feel the money/time/gas/and effort I have put in have been poor choices for my time. I am not all too bummed out about not being able to get an internship this summer (although that would have been so damn fabulous), my true discord lies in stupid little projects I get pretty fast and furious into for a very short time. Making a board game? Putting together a low-budget film for laughs? Going over to people's houses to play video games and sometimes just chat about topical things? Eating out with friends so often? These things aren't horrible things to do with one's time...if you're a teenager, and even then I don't know. I may not be a fortune teller, but at this rate I'm going, a successful and confident designer is not what I foresee anytime soon.

I love fashion. I want to pursue it harder and faster than before. I recall the passion and crazy amount of time I put into observing trends, understanding construction and fabrics, and overall design concept analysis puts a fire into my heart. I feel I see things in fashion most do not, but I am far from being so high on a pedestal to really design with such grace and authority. I am not afraid of failing to become a fashion designer, I am afraid of failing to become the fashion designer I hope to be (I'll explain that type of designer another time).

There are things I hope to do if I'm not doing work related to fashion, and that is learning Korean and getting into better shape. I have a 2 week pass for the gym, and have been working out pretty often (not too often, but a lot more than I have for some time now). I have been seeing results which have been pleasing motivation, and I hope to stick to it even when school starts. I PRAY TO GOD I AM ABLE TO WORK OUT DURING SCHOOL...

In terms of accomplishments I'm pretty happy about during my summer are:
-Starting to work out more often, getting into better shape.
-Went on a nice trip with friends to a casino and overall experience something new.
-Reestablished my relationship with my family (during school, I became so busy I hardly had the time to really see them).
-Still have money. This could change very fast if I'm not careful.
-Started going to a gay social group to meet new people and make friends.
-Sleep well...oh man, this is going out the window once school starts. Better enjoy it before I have to ween myself off of this for conditioning training.

Well, here's some memories of my recent summer events.

Me and Roderick at AX2011

I love his expression in both these pictures.

Random Pictures of Me During Casino Trip